You know when people say, ” I don’t wanna sound like a b*tch, but…” Well that’s the preface statement to my entire post this week. I profusely apologize to those who have approached me and said I can’t wait to read your blog every Monday or something to that nature. I just couldn’t do it last week. I’ve had a terrible few weeks of weigh ins, I am plateauing like no other and I’m sure people want to read about it because it happens to them too. Just so you have an idea of my frustration, I’ve lost 3 pounds of fat and gained 1 pound of muscle the past 2 weeks, yet the scale hasn’t budged. Miserable. But anyways, I just couldn’t put pen to paper last week. I reached a point where I was so done with writing blog posts. I’m so done with being in the spotlight and chronicling every aspect of this journey. I fully understand that I signed up for it but after 17 consecutive weeks of writing posts, it becomes so monotonous and uninspiring that it was better to write nothing at all than spew nonsense and post motivational quotes that I don’t believe.
It had also come to my attention that even though I haven’t reached my weight goal or my size goal, that they will be tapering me off of training with Jen. Heartbreaking. So unfortunate. No word of a lie, my time with Jen is without a doubt my two favorite times to go to the gym every week. She knows what’s up before I even open my mouth. She can tell. She is my biggest advocate and has become a very close friend. I wish I could afford you, Jen! I am so blessed to have received so many weeks of training with her thus far and I understand that the gym is a small business and they need to make money and “trim the fat,” pun intended…and so this needs to end for them financially. After 4 weeks of 1 session/week with Jen, I will cut down to classes only for 4 weeks and then I will be done.
Will it be a Total Body Transformation? No. It’s a Partial Body Transformation. Will I reach the arbitrary goal that was set for me? Who knows. It will certainly be a lot harder. Will ending this program start me into a vicious cycle of eating like crap and not working out? No. I will simply return to being like everyone else. Struggling on my own, where no one is reading about it every week. Will the weight come off as fast? I doubt that very much. But will it come off? Of course it will. Regardless of TBT, TIO, LOL, LMFAO etc…I’m mentally and physically dedicated to making myself the healthiest version of me. And I can do it behind closed doors.
I know that I’ll never lose the support system of family and friends who keep me working hard but I also truly believe that I will continue to maintain the support system that has grown at EFC. I want to thank everyone that has had a hand in this process from Jason to Greg to Jen, Linda, Andrea, Ginny…seriously everyone. You have helped me in ways I could have never imagined. You have made me a stronger person not only physically but mentally. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for believing in me and giving me this opportunity when you could have given it to anybody else…for that I am eternally grateful. Weight loss will be a lifelong battle for me and without this program I could have never turned the corner mentally that I needed to. For the first time in my life, I have made a sustainable change and one I hope I can continue to maintain for a very long time.
This will be my last post for about a month and then I will update you all at the beginning of September to let you know how this whole tapering process went. I thank you all for reading and commenting and supporting me. As much of a pain it was to figure out what to write about, I never felt like my complaints and struggles fell on deaf ears. I promise I will keep working hard and I’ll get to my goal!